today on my way home i took the b26. the bus operator was playful and lively, and for some reason he gave me a printed bus transfer ticket which i'm now using as a bookmark. 5 minutes into the ride, he announced to us that he had to stop the bus because it wasn't moving faster than 3mph. he parked the bus at a stop close to the halsey L and instructed us to wait inside the bus until the next one arrived so we could transfer. he took this pause as a moment to orate to us bus passengers about a few things
- he once was driving a bus and it caught fire, he told all of the passengers that it was on fire and no one made a move to exit (bizarre and frustrating)
- he does not clock in to work to be annoyed by fully grown adults
- he took a moment of silence... and informed us someone earlier that morning had jumped onto the J tracks and committed suicide
- he said "it's that time of the year. no one believes in god anymore"
- he told us that he has a 16yo daughter who gives him nothing to worry about–no false eyelashes, no piercings
then he stepped out and told us to wait inside. when the next bus came, he called us out to it, told the new driver that we'd all already paid, and greeted us all goodbye as we lined up to get on the new bus. i said thank you to him and he said have a good day
i've been talking a lot these days about god and needing something to worship. i'm currently reading "God Human Animal Machine: Technology, Metaphor, and the Search for Meaning" by Meghan O'Gieblyn. when i got home from my bus ride, i researched cybernetics because she references it a lot and i didn't understand what it meant. i watched a video describing a brief rundown / metaphor by Paul Pangaro, and then i learned about Deleuze and 'societies of control'.
i spent the rest of the day like this
- uploaded photos & videos (from my keychain digital camera gifted to me by isaiah) onto a google drive to share with isaiah, lizzie, myasia, angel, and henry - they turned out really cute and the image quality makes them look very old and 2000s
- in and out of napping
- ate leftover fresh pasta arabiatta made by me, lizzie, myasia, and angel, and tiramisu made by myasia and angel
- ate caesar salad
- cancelled going to yoga with alex because i needed a day to myself
- experimented with a dashi soup with kabocha squash and beech mushrooms, but i added some leftover egg whites i had way too early and it caused the soup to souffle. i blended everything together and strained it and enjoyed the broth. it was pretty good and tasted like egg drop soup but the process was diabolical
- cut out more fabric panels for a project im working on - this was tiring because i did it all on the floor
- heated my room to almost 80 degrees with my space heater
- talked to henry on the phone
- tried out my new water flosser
- showered
- tidied my room and living room
- massaged my legs with the theragun henry got me
- read more of my book
- did some etsy browser shopping for vintage mugs and tea towels
today felt important to document
